Well I dont know how he does it but I just know that the Lord does. My attitude is changed by his grace. My contention with my wife is over and I even hugged the older son today and forgave him for his previous bad behavior and am going to make an effort to pray more for him and watch my attitude toward him and completely put it in the Lords hands as far as how this situation will turn out but I am believing for victories for us all. Most importantly I am going to guard my heart with all dilegence for out of it come the issues of life.

> Its not like going to church is such a bad
> thing its just right now is a super trial
> and we need some immediate counseling. I
> have a very heavy heart and it seems like
> the enemy is getting the victory.

> Even two weeks a go I would have never even
> entertained the thought of a separation
> between me and my wife. My wife is still
> pushing and entertaining the thought of
> getting a house where her oldest son can
> come live with us. That thought is abhorent
> to me.

> There is not point of agreement on this and
> she is convinced this is Gods will for our
> lives. Its bad enough he lives now in the
> same apartment complex and I have taken the
> stand if he comes over here again I will
> call the cops and have him taken to jail.

> My position is this is a grown man 28 years
> old that wants to live with Mama the rest of
> his life. My wife claims this is just until
> he gets better. We all agreed in the
> beginning that the Lord showed us he was not
> to live with us and according to her now God
> has changed his mind and I just need to
> accept it after all this stife is occuring
> and her even ending up in the hospital
> becasue of all the stress between her and I
> as the animosity grows between me and her
> oldest son.

> I wanted to have a communion tonight which
> we did just the two of us but we had
> dialouge first and during that time the
> peace that I had is gone when I could see
> her plan that she is still entertaining even
> at the cost of us breaking up.

> I asked her tonight when she is still
> pushing her plan as " Gods plan"
> and she even said never say never when I
> said I could never consider taking care of
> him in our home for the rest of his life
> should he not improve but become worse.

> I would do just about anything for the ohter
> son as he is giving and does things from his
> heart for us without a second thought. but
> this other son is no blessing of any kind
> and has done nothing but use people and lie
> and manipulate.

> I have a sick feeling in my stomach right
> now. I told my wife tonight after our
> communion and she said whats wrong did I say
> something wrong and I said honey we need
> some consuling or I dont think our marriage
> is gonna make it.

> I would have never thought two weeks ago or
> a month ago or a year ago that we would be
> going thru this sort of thing and me
> actually considering a separation. It makes
> me sick inside.

> For me this is an intolerable situation that
> needs immediate attention. So three weeks of
> church right now seems like an eternity.