there was a good explanation for his being late, and he did in fact show up, but i was a sleep, and he rang the door bell, but it dosent work,lol,he said he felt like such a s***, and that he woulnt have blamed me if i ended it, which i said was the consensis, but i forgave him. this whole day has been a real eye opener for me, i realised that my self esteem is way to dependent on other people,so i went and got a small tattoo, (oh my god!!) my first, and last , and it is the chinese symbol for "self", or "me", and its a reminder for me that i am a good person, and i deserve to be happy, and to work on my self esteem.