> Any time anything happens to my older kids,
> I always get these terrible guilt attacks,
> that it is linked with their past and my
> responsiblity for it.
> I can imagine if my hubby had wanted to
> leave, that I would have done the same. At
> the worst of times, my oldest son told me, I
> had to stop thinking about it because it was
> literally tearing me apart.
> If you have told your kids how sorry you
> are, then at least they know, it's extremely
> embarrassing to admit how wrong I was to the
> kids and to think I never even knew my
> eldest had been abused by a so called
> "loving" brother.
> The dirty dog that he was, would pull my
> little eleven year old into his bed.
> She never told me until I started
> apoligising, I couldn't believe how stupid I
> had been, trusting these 'brothers'.
> Anyway, it's taken a long time for my
> daughter to begin to trust men. I don't know
> that she has fully recovered.
> I hate to think if she became involved in
> drugs, it certainly can happen to anyone.
> Don't think of yourself as whiner, I know
> how your feel and you need to be able to
> vent about it, that dirty jerk who abused
> your daughter.
It helps that you can relate. Thanks for responding.


