My apologies! I thought I was on the Recovery site.

> I think, like you, that for me, I am
> stronger for having once been a partaker of
> the Cog's extreme dysfunction and, like you,
> I also feel that it has been worth the work
> to continue growing, sins and all. What
> amazes me is His AMAZING GRACE!I surely
> don't deserve it.

> How did I deal with the spiritual side of
> all this? I guess I got re-brainswashed with
> post-cog life experiences for starts - one
> of them being the realization that I hadn't
> been abandoned, nor forsaken, nor thrown
> upon a scrap heap. In fact, although I know
> now that He was there for me all the time,
> it felt, at times, that He was there for me
> more outside the group. I also studied a
> lot. However, in my case, I didn't grasp the
> pshycology of all that I was going through
> until after I got through it. Once I got
> through it, though, I came to an amazing
> sense of self - the, "I am who I
> am" thing and that felt REALLY GOOD!
> I've been building on that - inspite of my
> faults.

> Good post Woodie!