Hi, Woodie, thanks for asking. I appreciate that you are concerned. I have just not had much time to spend on the internet the last week or so.

Last week was very difficult. My daughter had taken something (found out later probably Valium and Soma) and it led from one bad thing to another. She cannot tolerate anti-anxiety drugs at all. Her reaction to all of them is actually the direct opposite of what the effect should be. She becomes very loud, obnoxious, hyper, manic, and very difficult to be around. She alienates everyone, and you can see it immediately in her eyes when she has taken something. I have told her this over and over, but she just doesn't think it's true, so it doesn't faze her. She has taken high doses of soma before and thought she was going to die, as well as it slows down her speech and she can hardly talk. So she takes them at the same time to counteract each other.

Anyhow, she had taken some medications. To make a long story short, I don't know what all happened, but her boyfriend beat her up pretty bad. Her face was all bruised, and he had kicked her in the knee and she couldn't walk. She looked really bad. But she was still doing whatever it was that she was doing, and so they were still fighting about it. Then they decided to move from their mobile home into a house to share with some "wonderful new friends." Everyone talked to her about NOT moving there with the boyfriend, but she doesn't listen, of course, when she is in that frame of mind. So now she has moved further away where she is rather isolated in a house without running water or electricity at the moment. I guess they are trying to get them turned on, but I am not contributing to them.

I think she has been back to her normal self for a few days now. She has called every day to ask for money. I hate to see her go hungry, but I will not give her money because most likely it would go to drugs. She knows she can come here to eat, but now that the boyfriend is not welcome, they haven't been coming by. He goes to his grandmother's to eat, but she just goes without. What I hate is that she constantly begs for money, and if I don't give in, she starts calling all her siblings and anyone else she can think of and bugs them.

Ususally if I feel she really needs something, I will go buy it and give it to her, but I do not give her cash. They drive a cadillac so gas is a big problem. In the past, I would sometimes go with them to the gas station and put $10 of gas in their car on my debit card. Tonight I heard a new one - the gas line leaks, and so they can't put gas in tonight because it would be gone by morning. They just need the money instead so they can put it in in the morning, and he can get to work. That one really took some thinking!

Right now, we don't know from one day to the next what she will be like. She thinks she can't apply for a job without taking something for anxiety, but no one in their right mind would hire her once they see what she is like on anti-anxiety meds. She doesn't get it.

So...that is where we are at right now. I am having to just trust the Lord for her protection because she is not doing anything to help herself. But she is not at her worst, for that I am thankful. Thanks for thinking of us, and all prayers are greatly appreciated!