If only feelings got straightened out as fast as intellectually looking at and understanding pieces of the past!
I have healed a lot but like getting wounded in battle, those old scars sometimes give an ache or two, or several. I don't think there is a way around it.
I am much better these days than I was for years. What I find creeping up on me now is more physical. I was a very strong woman physically and then in my thirties I started feeling arthritis in my bones all over. Through my forties I could dance but can't anymore. I got to admit that I envy people that stay healthy into old age, being very mobile and relatively well.
I don't doubt that lifestyle while young affects a person in their latter years of life. I know that I had many jobs that were hard on the body physically and now I am paying for it.
Some is genetic I am sure. Like my teeth. I have them all and have had very little dental work.
Oh well. I was wondering how others handle aging and how is your health these days?

> And well said. I could have written some of
> it my self. Though I came from a very fine
> home with a single parent and Christian
> background, I too joined the COG to Serve
> the Lord, or so I thought. I guess my guilt
> was from not recognizing that this was a
> cult and not having the spiritual
> discernment to smell a rat.

> I have realized that I also didn't have the
> knowledge and teaching in my early years to
> be able to see that wiggly little red nose.
> When I say "I let things happen",
> I basically mean I personally didn't have
> enough understanding to know wrong from
> right at times. I felt like I should have.
> I've come to grips with it and have had a
> lot of long talks and apologies and
> conversations thereof with my kids as well.

> My great hope is that my children will find
> healing and faith in their own terms and not
> wear the ugly badge of guilt I so proudly
> put on them in the COG. It's a work in
> progress.

> I'm not applying any guilt to you. Please
> understand that. Many do feel it though and
> that takes some healing and understanding,
> which I think you have come to realize.

> You said: > I am glad I am not alone!
> Thanks for

> No criticizm received. That's why we're are
> hear. To speak honestly.