Aging is not a very easy thing. Some days, I really don't care about it, until I look at myself in the mirror and don't see the person I imagine that I am. I don't look to old physically, but my weight and other things about myself are not that great.
What I would really like and I hate about aging, is that people see you different, they see you as <>, as my youngest son would put it. You don't feel old inside, but then you have more physical limitations. I wanted to go biking the other day after a surgery, but the hot weather and my big body had made it difficult. My husband brought my bicycle back in his car at my return. I am pretty lucky though, besides my kidney stone problems ,I don't have too many others. I am starting to have a hard time to go up the stairs, as I feel a little something in my knees, but stubbornly I go up anyway, at least at work or in my house.
I have nothing against the "number" represented by my age, but I would like it to be only a number for others too. If only I would look ""fit"", the look of others would instantly change. I know we don't live for others, but it is important to be validated for who we are inside, instead of the look we have outside.
But, it is not only for older people, it is also for the young who don't fit into the mold.
I am not glad to see that many years have past and that I did not do a lot of things that I wanted to do.